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Tyrone "Ty" Johnson ([personal profile] too_honest) wrote2018-08-16 11:34 am
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FIGHTING YOUR INNER DEMONS
Everybody has them. Some are louder than others. Some are stronger. Some are overwhelming, and sooner or later you just give up fighting. But there are other people around you who want to help you - maybe they're suffering too, either because of your inner monster or their own. Or maybe they're one of the lucky ones with demons that don't howl so much.

You can help each other. It's better than the alternative.


TURN OVER A NEW LEAF FOR YOU


Here's the thing: in the past, you've not been a nice person. Whether you were just a little nasty, you did terrible things, you were forced to be a monster, or your heart was dark to the core, it's understandable why you weren't anyone's favorite. But those days are behind you. Now, there's someone you care for, someone you want to get closer to, someone you lov-

Well, they make you want to be a better person. This desire could have been a gradual realization, or you could have suddenly decided one day to improve. In the same vein, you may want a complete overhaul, yet you could also be more realistic and try to work on one thing. Still, you know that you're the only one who can change yourself.

How is that going? It can't be easy, as old habits die hard. Do you have a supportive loved one — or someone who wants nothing to do with you, no matter how much you improve?


FIRSTS

You're in right smack in the middle of exciting times, perhaps even the peak of your life so far, and you're not alone. For you and your companion, it's all about firsts: first crush, first love, first fight, first confession, first kiss, first time, first adventure to certain death together - you know, as you do. There is a first time for everything, after all, and they say you never forget your first.

So...first?

1. First Kiss: Is there anything sweeter?

2. First Date: Are you super awkward and nervous or getting on like a house on fire?

3. First Time: A little awkward, a little exciting, always memorable. (Unless you had to get drunk to get up the nerve.)

4. First Place: Apartment in the city, or perfect white picket fenced home! Either way, better make the best of it.

5. First Pet: Dog or cat? Fish tank? Rhinoceros?

6. What is this...Love Thing?: I don't understand love. What is love, baby don't hurt me ---

7. Protected/Safe: You always feel safe with them. How can you thank them?

8. Childhood Sweethearts: You've loved them what seems like forever, ever since you were little.

9. Arguments: You jerk! Look what you've done! I never want to see you again.

10. Unlucky Friend: You lost the person of your dreams to someone else, perhaps because of their allure or perhaps because you never spoke up. What can you do now?

11. I'll Cheer You On: Always supportive, always by your side, they're the person you can count on. Why do they care so much, though?

12. Slap-Slap-Kiss: I could kill you for what you just did! I could - I could KISS YOU.

13. Confession in the Heat of the Moment: You're about to go defeat the ultimate baddie. How about confessing your feelings to the person you love? Seems legit.

14. Sudden Kiss: Kiss from nowhere! There are lots of reasons for this: to stop someone from crying, to make them be quiet, or just to explain yourself when words can't.

15. Waking Up: Fluffy, sleepy, giggly morning in bed.
crazy_white_girl: (distant / hooded)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-15 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
Tandy could feel a bitter sort of laugh bubbling up inside of her the second they landed back in the church and let go of her hand in the blink of an eye. She had tried to warn him that she was messed up and that getting involved with her could be trouble, so it only seemed fitting that shit would go sideways the minute that shit hit the fan. And oh boy, had it ever.

Wrapping her arms around herself, she watched as he moved away from her and refused to make eye contact while offering to take her home. She almost agreed but she also resisted telling him to do something nasty to himself before taking off. She normally would have but she found herself hesitating because she couldn't do her normal thing with Ty. She was trying to be a different person and that was largely because of him.

She started to take a step towards him but paused, hesitating for a moment as she tried to figure out how she was supposed to do this. She opened her mouth, closed it and frowned softly at his back like the problem was continuing confusing her. Then she drew in a breath and sighed, looking down at the ground without realizing the vulnerable sort of portrait she made at the moment.

"I'm....sorry." She managed then, softly. "But he was wrong. If anyone is slumming it, it's you. I did warn you about getting involved with me, Ty. This kind of shit just might be normal...if you still want to."
crazy_white_girl: (shaken / look down)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-17 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
"No! Ty, no." Her response was immediate and sharp, almost desperate even but she needed him to believe her as she took a step towards him. Then she stopped herself, keeping her distance as she drew in a breath to steady herself before she could explain.

"Of course, I want to." She told him honestly but she was still scared of something. Of him, of herself, of the thing between them that was so large and intense that it could feel all-consuming. It was also the thing that made her feel safest which was a scary feeling to have considering all that she had lost before.

"What I feel for him, about him, is guilt." There was a part of her that didn't even want to tell him all this but she suspected he knew or could figure it out on his own. He had seen her at her worse or close to it but it still felt hard to say the words out loud. As if she could keep him from remembering if she didn't say anything but she had warned him already that being with her wouldn't be easy.

"If I had the feelings that he wanted me to have, I would have been better to him than I was. But all I did was use him and then...abandon him when he needed me." It made her feel gross to say it, the shame rippling across her features as she looked down at the ground. "I don't think I can ever make it right with him. Not right now. All I can really do at the moment is to try to be better and not do all the shitty things I used to do."

Swallowing thickly, she looked up at Ty again. "But I don't want to be with him."
crazy_white_girl: (intrigued / little smile)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-18 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
It hadn't crossed Tandy's mind that he would take her earlier response about being willing to try as though she might not actually want to but she was doing it for whatever reason. She had thought she was being clear but she could see now that he still wasn't sure and the sudden reappearance of Liam had made it worse.

There was a very good chance that she would smack him for thinking she was cute in that moment but she was too focused on the guilt that churned in the pit of her stomach and the fact that everything she was saying might chase him off. It would be all too easy to put her change on him but she knew it wouldn't work that way.

No, a part of wanting to be better was being able to help people with her power. It was a rush that felt tons better than how crappy she was used to feeling most of the time. She had sunk low enough that she didn't want to feel that way anymore. But yeah, maybe he helped a bit.

Pausing in her thoughts as he started to speak, she focused on him again and pressed her lips together as he pointed out that Liam was a grown man. Shifting her weight, she continued to watch as he moved towards her, hope blooming in the center of her chest until he teased her and earned himself a little glare.

She also gave him a little punch in the arm. Or actually, it was more of a nudge that led into her trailing her fingers lightly down his arm when he reached up to cup the side of her face, sending a wash of electric energy through her.

"Yeah well, you drive me crazy too." She smirked up at him.
crazy_white_girl: (intrigued / little smile)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-20 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
The corners of her mouth twitched as she knew the 'punch' had done very little to him but she still liked the playfulness between them. It was their way of flirting before they had even realized what it was they were doing with one another.

"Yeah, yeah, that's me." She shook her head at him as she slid into his arms, liking the feel of them around her as she slid her hands up his chest. 'Strangely aggressive tiny girl' was a pretty good way of describing her, she would have to admit. But she had already been pissed off at Ty before though she would suspect that she had probably pissed him off more than he had done to her.

But she could tell that he wasn't mad at her right now. No, there was a different kind of look and heat in his eyes as she slid her arms around his neck. She could feel it stirring inside of her too as she captured her bottom lip between her teeth, not really aware of the coquettish vision she portrayed at the moment.

Really, the idea of kissing or doing more in the church didn't bother her. She just knew that she wanted to kiss him again but then she was distracted by his comment, seeming to perk as she tightened her arms around his shoulders and pushed up on her tiptoes to bring her lips tantalizingly close to his. "Why, Tyrone Johnson, are you actually saying that you want to get me into a hotel room? What kind of girl do you think I am?"

Hopefully one that would say yes to going to a hotel room with him.
crazy_white_girl: (Ty / sometimes the only thing I know)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-21 06:45 am (UTC)(link)
The ability to get through one's walls and see right through the person underneath was a two way street with them. There were times when Tandy hated how easily Ty saw the truth with her but it had also become a sort of comfort. It was scary but there was something nice about the fact that she could be honest with him. It still worried her at times but so far he had held true.

She did wonder what would happen if Evita ever came back though. It was easy to see that the girl had cared for him on some level and that he had cared in return. At the same time, how much could she have really cared knowing that he was possibly going to die and doing nothing more than just giving them a warning? Plus she had walked away without a word which was something Tandy couldn't even imagine doing to Ty.

No, she stayed right where she was which was at his side and now they were going to give being a couple a try. So she smiled at him when he rolled his eyes, seeing the humor there and echoing it back to him as she teased her fingers over the back of his neck. "Except you can and you are, clearly."

It was a teasing comment before she leaned up to kiss him again, quickly deepening it and adding more heat now that they were alone again. It made her feel alive and equally as warm even though all she wore was her dress and no jacket. She pressed closer too, fitting the length of her body against his own as any thought of leaving quickly evaporated again.
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[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-22 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
At one time, Tandy couldn't have imagined her father doing anything wrong. He had been perfect in her eyes but she knew now that there were a lot of things she had been blind to because she had been a child at the time. She had let her grief and anger twist her which it could have done further once she learned the truth but the whole thing with Ty and their powers had pulled her back. Yes, she had done some bad things while she was hurting with the revelation but they kept her from going too far.

It was the same way she had refused to leave him alone when his friend had died and through the final fight with Connors. She hadn't been able to touch him at the time but she had laid with him until he calmed down and she had been the one he called when he wanted to listen to the tape of him with his brother again. It paled in comparison to what he had done for her, at least in her mind, but she tried.

She tried more with him than she had with anyone else in a long time.

She knew that meant something just like it meant something now as the kiss grew more fevered and her breathing grew heavier. It mingled sweetly with his whenever they parted for a second to draw in some much-needed air or to change the angle of the kiss. She even slid her hands over his shoulders to help him push the coat off, her heart racing as she moved her hands to the bottom of his shirt.

But she paused for a moment when she might have pulled his shirt off over his head. Instead, she leaned back slightly to look at him, licking her lips as she did. "A-are you sure about this?"
crazy_white_girl: (smiling / pleased)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-26 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
Eventually, Tandy would have to find a way to convince Ty that she wasn't having second thoughts. Probably right about the same time she figured out that he wasn't having them either because she was sure that point was coming somewhere.

But right now she definitely wasn't having second thoughts or even thinking about much really. It was easy to tell that he wasn't either considering the rather adorably confused look he gave her as he tried to figure out why she had stopped for a moment. Then he was asking if she was sure which was easily the sweetest thing anyone had done for her in a long time.

There was no stopping the way her features softened as she touched his face, staring at him for a moment like she was truly in awe or had just seen the best thing ever. At least until he called attention to the rather physical reaction he was having as if she couldn't feel it pressing against her stomach seconds before.

"I don't want that." She murmured softly, rising up on her tiptoes to bring her lips close to his. "I want this. Right now."
crazy_white_girl: (smirk / being charming)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-28 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
Tandy considered telling him that she was fine with right here but then she realized that maybe it wasn't right for him. Ty was too good, too gentle, for their first time together to be on the church floor. So she pressed her lips together to keep from smiling at how adorable she found him at that moment, her fingers brushing over his chest as he slid his hands over her hips after blushing.

"Not here." She licked her lips slowly, lingering close as she studied his face with a heated gaze. She could feel the air humming with energy and need, making her intimately aware of him in a way she had never felt before.

"Maybe you don't know any penthouse suites or anything but what about just a plain old hotel room?" She suggested, tilting her head slightly. "Maybe somewhere you went on a basketball trip or something?"
crazy_white_girl: (Ty / testing the limits)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-09-30 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ones where you might have gone on trips to play at other schools?" Tandy rolled her eyes in amusement, nudging his shoulder playfully when he laughed a little at her. She thought it was adorable but that didn't mean she could resist teasing him as she smirked up at him. "Now I'm wondering what kind of basketball you were thinking about?"

She fell quiet as he thought about the hotels his mother had stayed in and she tilted her head curiously, watching him stop himself before telling her to stop. Then she mimicked his noise, making a soft one of her own that sounded like a protest even though she knew that he had to grab his hoodie if he was teleporting them somewhere. Not that he had to put his shirt on but she didn't stop him.

Instead, she smiled with a giddy sense of excitement as she stepped into his arms again, sliding her own under his hoodie and around his waist while she leaned up to kiss him back. She felt the change when it came but she wasn't in a hurry to pull away from him. It didn't even cross her mind to be concerned that there might be someone in the room he had brought them too and she figured they were pretty safe when she didn't hear a call of surprise following their arrival.

Her eyes remained closed for a moment longer when the kiss finally broke and she continued to lean into him as she felt strangely content despite the hum of arousal in her veins. Then she heard him talking again and she opened her eyes to look around, recognizing the importance of the room for him. Tonight, they would add another kind of importance to it but she held back for a moment, smiling a bit as she looked at the window.

"It's beautiful." She murmured before looking up at him, knowing he needed the words. "It's perfect, Ty."
crazy_white_girl: (smirk / being charming)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-10-01 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
"Uh huh, sure." There was no stopping the smirk that appeared then, filled with mischief and something far more suggestive as she leaned into him briefly. She liked getting a reaction from him at times, especially those times when he told her that he couldn't with her or something. She was starting to see it was a good comment in its own way. "Are you sure it wasn't strip basketball or something? Because if that's a thing, I would totally play with you."

Maybe he was a brooding angry mess or a lost puppy but she was pretty sure that she was just as bad. She often smiled at him like a lovesick idiot or one of those schoolgirls who thought he was the best thing since sliced bread. Not Evita or anything because that would be weird but some other girl. She smiles at him like she had never smiled at anyone else.

She was still smiling when they arrived in the room and it turned oddly bashful when he told her that she was beautiful. Ducking her head with a small smile, she lowered her gaze as she felt a bloom of warmth start in the middle of her chest and spread outward in a way she had never experienced before. Suddenly she wanted to shuffle and hide her face but she didn't. Ty would never let her hear the end of it if she ever did.

Releasing him when he moved away to lock the door, she briefly clasped her hands as she turned to look around the room once more. Maybe it wasn't all that big but she didn't care. It was paradise to her and it was better because he was there with her.

Then she was right back to smirking as he started to mention the tub and seemed to realize just how it sounded that he was bringing it up. Chuckling, she reached up to curl her hands in his shirt as she started to kick off her heels. "Oh, I am definitely getting in the tub later and, if you play your cards right, I might even let you join me."
crazy_white_girl: (sexy / on top)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-10-02 05:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Tandy was just childish enough that she didn't even bother hiding her the smug satisfaction that she felt when she got exactly the reaction that she wanted. It even bordered on glee combined with a cute smirk because she knew she had planted an idea in his head. Maybe they could even find a makeshift basketball hoop at the church.

But it was true, while she worried about her mom and Mina, it was really only the 'team' that she shared with Ty that concerned her. He was the only 'team' and person that she wanted. She wasn't thinking about Liam or Evita because she felt like neither one of the exes could touch what they had now.

She also wasn't worried about Ty's experience or the lack of because she was more focused on the feel which was amazing. Anything else could be learned, she knew that, and she had no problem taking the time to help him gain experience. But right now she was focused on the feel of his hands on her or how he made her head spin a little when they kissed.

"Shut up." She muttered with a soft chuckle as he called her beautiful again, getting her just a tiny bit flustered again. She silenced him with another hungry kiss, the pleasure spiking anew inside of her. The only time she stopped was to pull at his shirt, helping him tug it off again so it could be dropped to the floor and she could slide her hands over his arms.

Then they were kissing again, causing her to moan softly as she let her hands slide from his arm over his chest, mapping out the muscles and committing the feel to memory. When she paused again, it was only to whisper. "There is a zipper on the back."
crazy_white_girl: (smirk / being charming)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-10-04 06:53 am (UTC)(link)
"You're just figuring that out? Really?" Tandy whispered softly, smirking against his lips in turn before they started working at getting each other's clothes off.

She was easily so wrapped up in him that she didn't notice the darkness swirling about them. A sure sign of just how comfortable she was with him and his power beyond the fact that he was doing a damn good job at distracting her. Especially as his mouth moved to her neck, causing her pulse to race as she tipped her head to the side and bit at her bottom lip while he started working on the back of her dress.

Even just the gentle brush of his fingers against her spine made her tingle and arch closer, not at all bothered by the fact that she would be pretty much naked in front of him once the dress hit the floor. All that she wore after that happened was a pair of panties as her age meant that she didn't have to worry about wearing a bra all the time. Plus the dress had been snug enough to keep her breasts in place but having the material gone meant her nipples tightened further in the cool air of the room. Or maybe it was being even more turned on than she had been a couple seconds before.

But then he was distracting her for a different reason and she paused, groaning. "Maybe...yeah? I mean, I'm on the pill but maybe we should...have one?"

It was all too tempting to tell him not to worry about it as she started to sit down, her hand sliding over his stomach and dropping to tease along the waistband of his pants. "Or maybe a few of them?"
crazy_white_girl: (smiling / pleased)

[personal profile] crazy_white_girl 2018-10-04 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Tandy had to bite the inside of her cheek as she watched the confusion and a range of emotions flicker across his face. Really, she wouldn't have even thought of a condom until he brought it up. Which was risky behavior for her, she was sure, but she had thought he wanted one. He was so responsible and straight-laced that it sort of made sense but now he seemed to be almost disappointed.

Reaching to slide her fingers against his, she teased her nails over his palms but didn't hold on. Instead, she continued to tease her fingers along the inside of his forearms and then higher while he let his eyes roam over her. The way he looked at her was exciting, leaving her breathless as she started to tug at him.

"Don't worry about it." She started to lay back, deciding then that they would be fine because she was on the pill. So she shifted up further, tugging at him as she slid one hand over his shoulder to clasp the back of his head. She wanted to kiss him again and she wanted to feel the weight of him on top of her while she did. "You don't need to go."

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